the/homemade/superhero

I'm awesome. Who, Me? YEEEEEAH.

b/c of how nerdy and much of a loser I am

half written half freestyle half of a song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKkBvZJp3pY

how can you blame yourself if you sincerely did not know

also..

is it better to give a little to a lot or...

give a lot to a little

think good do good. feel good

i kind of look like 'this

got some light shun.

thats all for now

i smoked. For the first time in a while and, i kinduv came over this cool truth about the, mindset i guess..your in when your high and when ur not. im not taking this 2 seriously but i sort of am@the same time.

high: small "picture" stuff, example could be "ah fuk off i gotta get ready n go to work now..lame" is perceived in negative sort of ways..when if you were sober, you wouldn't necessarily be excited about work but u'd just accept that that's life and ur broke as fuk

high: bigger "picture" stuff, example could be "man, my family is actually so dope and i'm blessed just to be alive" perceived in a very positive way when most of the time we would just look past that and not really appreciate the bigger picture when your sober, i mean we do but not the way we do when your high..you just really believe it all and understand it a little better and maybe in a different funny awesome kind of way.  

sober: small "picture" stuff, example could be "man my job is going really well and i think im gona get a raise" perceived in positive way with when your high you just wouldn't rly think of it..these thoughts may be kinda boring and simple but are important to an extent. 

sober: bigger "picture" stuff, example could be "why is there so many jerk offs in my city and why is there so many fukt up things goin on in the world" perceived in negative ways and with being high you'd just be like ah not that bad or simply just not giving a fuk

I use to smoke a lot of weed cuz there are a lot of good things that do come from it, but there are some "negatives" that come along with it..really, it was just to much of a good thing. there is a balance. i just think its rly hard to meet but i do feel its defntly there. i like to look at important things in my life from each perspective, each mind set have a lot of good and maybe some not so good but fuk the not so goods. 

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we all live in a dope dope place..till you stop looking at it that way. life is always gona throw shitty shit at you, just dodge that shit get the fuk outta the way and keep goin. life is never gona be easy..ever ever. a lot of people just give up and then complain about being down..digging themselves deeper into that hole. falling down is the best thing cuz the faster you come back up the better and if you learn from it then that mistake was absolutely perfect. 

high minds got the ideas, sobers got the "ambition" ambition has been kinda buggin me out, i rly don't want ambition but at the same time u sometimes need it. i wana do something cuz i feel good about it, not because i'm trying to feel good. i kinda have this visualization of myself dancing in the middle of the street just high and drunk luvin it..im doin it cuz it feels good, not b/c i'm tryin to feel good, make anybody else feel good or trying to get someone to join me. it just feels good, ambition-less.

so i dono, maybe i really don't ever wana achieve something. i went to africa few years ago..and not b/c i was trying to impress myself or make up for any past but just did it b/c it felt right and just simply wanted to see what it'd be like. i didn't actually want to get anything out of it, it just happened to happen that way, i rly still don't know, to this day what i did get out of that, but i know it was a lot.

.lifes a bitch, till u fuk that bit..then its just guuhhhd

with being and feeling normal is that it's just2damn boring

with smiling, peace and squashing n8rs b4 they classify you deceased

my only ambition is to have none